hrmm...my life jz like black and white...

wat a sad life when u gonna face to the world tat u are not gonna b c colour again...in other meaning is just being alone...not to emo ryt my sentence? hahaha..

wat i just wanna split it out at here is just wanna to say..im kz oni wanna sum attention from sum body...bt whn i do tat..is like a cruel time for me..y? coz people will owez think tat im freaking annoying...
wanna to talk to sumbody..no body will hear it clearly...
wanna to show to sumbody..no body will c it wisely..

who am i realy? jz a guy wit da colour blind eye...

jz can c black and white..

is a awful day by day i gona b face to..

cant even c any traffic lite colour..can even knw wat is green..cant even knw wat is red...all jz black..and white..

why??

why i was lik tis in all this day??
 sy semakin ari semakin ssh nak tdo...
ntah apa sakit sy yg sy alami skr...
apa yg sy sllu pikir kan??
kebykan sy memikir ttng c "DIA"...
"DIA" sllu wat sy senyum...sllu teman sy..
sejak start ni sem...kami jrng dah bersms...
jmp pn x sllu...n "DIA" byk asgmt nak d bt..."DIA" stndt yg cermrlang..
bkn lar mcm sy ni...
sy bkn lar llk y bgs..sy xtau apa2..cma tau men magic ja...
xtau xtrm game...xtau men instrument..apa pn x tau..
sgh sedih bla pkr blk..
hehe..
tp sy hepy sgt bla ada dy muncul kat dpn sy and ucap I LOVE U ngan sy..n cium pp sy yg berjerewat ni
hahaha..
ni ari sabtu...sy ada performance kat LOK YUK...and skr ni dy tgh jamming ngan kwn2 dy d kk..
sy sgt risau gla ngan dy..
pelbgi benda yg sy pikir kan...nape? sbb sy terlalu LOVE kat dy..dy lar gadis yg btl2 trima sape diri sy..
pratikal nak dkt dah...n kami lg lar akan jrng berhbng..
sy risau yg dy akan lapkan sy...
sy sllu risau kan dy..sllu nak dy teman kan sy...sy ni kuat cntrl ka??
sy cma tkt kehilangan dy...sbb tu lar sy terlalu cntrl dy...sy tkt alami skt ati lg...
sy btl2 nak dy dgn sy...
bla dy senyum...btl2 bt sy lega and hepy...btl bt sy rsa bhgai...nape? sbb dy seorg gadis yg btl2 bek dgn sy.,
wlpn kkdng dy sllu marah sy..x lyn apa yg sy tgh ceritakan..tp sy rsa hepy..sbb dy teman sy...sy btl2 ska bla dy sms sy dgn penuh perhatian..sejak dy beli hp bru dah...kami jrng dah sms..napa? sbb dy tkt hp dy rosak..
n97..rm1900..kalo sy..pn tkt jga...mahal gla tu...hp sy pn bru rm900..ari tu hp dy jth.lg lar..hp dy trus jd unstabil..sy nak apa?? ntah...sy nak dy...sume nya..
hehe..tamak kan..hahaahaha...
mcm mna pn//sy ttp cintakan dy..XIRA ANDREA MARCUS..ME YAP ZUN FEN SO LOVE U TILL DA DAY I DIE!!!

hah?

napa sy ni...
dibelungi dgn masalah2 yg berkaitan dgn band lg?..
napa sy x open mcm llk len?..
nape fikiran ku mc kuno mcm org dlu2 yg x bg bini mereka kuar p keja??...
napa sy blh jd begini?...
mc trauma?..
btl..mmg mc trauma...ttng dlu?..
dlu sy dgn ex sy gaduh sal band jga..
sejak situ..sy x lg percaya org yg ada band and gf sy akan join diorg..
ya..mgk ko ckp mereka bek..tp diorg ttp llk..1 band sekurang2nya ada 4 org..
3 llk and 1 ppn..p jamming..sy btl2 risau dgn keadaan begini..
diorg ttp llk bha..and gf sy tu ppn..
gf sy blh dikatakan naif..dy tgk org dr luar..kalo dy rsa okie..okie lar tu..
sy ni len..sy btl2 x dpt trima sume ni..
sy btl2 x ska dy join band...sy btl2 xska..sy risau dy..
sy terlanpau jeles bha,...ee...napa sy ni...bingung!!
mlm lg tu besok mereka p jamming..aduh..mlm!!! napa!! harap x dpt lar p...
sy btl2 x ska owh!!!!
im sorry...

Stupid..

i owez think tat im stupid...

y i owez think lik tat?

i smtym owez talk till can make sum ppl hate or pissed of me..

y my mouth so bad? y i owez make ppl angry?

im slow..

bt how stupid i am..i still can think straightly..

bt whn too straight..

will owez being cheated..

tats y i got 1 good and caring girlfriend name XIRA ANDREA MARCUS..

she owez guide my road..

she owez teach me..

she owez scold me to da good..

bt smtym is my fault..

i talk lik nothing..tiz can make she angry and pissed off to me..

she dnt lik me talk yg xda2..

i owez think..

wat topic yg got meaning..

tats y im too slow..

i love she..she love me..

mie..plz 4gv dee..owez make mie marah...

Today...beach?

wow..

today is so best day I ever had b4..

ur all knw y? coz 2day I can dating wit my lao poh!..

not oni tat..mny thing tat happen witout our mind..

1st..whn i otw to fetch my lao poh..i drive so fast..wan rush tym..sddly i got sense tat sum1 ask me to drive slow..thn i slow down til 60km/h..sddly got da kerbau lari limpas da jln..i was panic so much..n if i drve fast..sure i ody in Hospital ody nw..

2nd..whn i go take isi minyak da car so slow to isi minyak..make me so pissed off man..after isi minyak..i sw got accident..i thnk..if i fast.mayb is me tat da person..

3rd..whn near kolombong dy..is rain..i think..y plak today rain..is not suppose to rain today..after pick my lao poh..da rain sdly stop..til to kk..

4th..and so weird today c Momoi go kk..it make us no nit spend to much tym 8 inanam..wow..after tat she 4low us go CP..

5th..c TeQa oso 8 CP..is mean no nit i rush to Servay terbakar dulu thy..so lucky man..

6th..and sddly my lao poh smile to talk wit me..dee!! we no nit mit Jim at Tg aru dy..he 8 here mkn..wow..is mean +++ our tym 2gether..whn we go bac to car to take his Macaroni..we saw RM4 on da floor..wow..in my mind..wan take..bt i think..if after take trus bad luck..how? after rungut2 wit my lao poh..she ask me go take..after take..we decide dnt wan lar..she thn jz throw on da floor bc lik da Millionaire..hahaha...cool man..

7th..after gv him da Macaroni..nxt point is mit mei2..bt after in car dy..we t4get buy c Aboo pnya donut..suck man..coz him..we gona round da warisan 4 tym..ee!..

8th..after buy tat..we direct go Tg Aru..thn we saw c mei2 from air port,.mayb jz take plane from her school..hahaha..anyway we can mit she at da tym..haha..ni ari 1st tym npk c Lalaw ka? ..hahaha..tp okie lar..

9th..after tat..we go picnic they beach..wow..wlpn picnic not so mewah..bt we both hepy..hehe..laugh2 and smile2..and talk about KACANG LUPAKAN KULIT..

10th..after we eat..we wana go c mega long..to view da new hypermarket..eheeheh..after tat we go city mall to walk2..hehe..we buy drinks at SAN FRANCISCO..wow..nyam2..

today is our lucky and hepy day! rili!! wlpn at cp they whn i talking wit u..u bz sms n dint hear anything wat i said..i dnt angry jga..coz i can c u smile and bisde me..hehe..i love u so much.. mie..da batik cake so nice and da macaroni..wow!!! nyam2!!

why...i love u...

why i will love u since da 1st tym i saw u at gaya street...
that tym i was da 2nd or 3th sem at ATiC..
i was trully lik to go cc play some games..and i saw u wit ur bf at cc..wah..tat tym i fel u so cute and chix..
honestly..i always ejek2 u..haha..wit joey lar..hehe..tat tym me so nakal kan...and so ngam tat tym i got conclict wit my ex..
whn da 1st tym u add me at tagged..
wa..i saw ur pix..so sweet u knw..rili..
in my heart i got da feeling to u..bt i scare to take action..because tat tym u got bf and i got gf...
since v playing msg2 at tagged..i fel so syok tiz..
every evning or nyt check inbox must got ur msg...so hepy to read ur msg,...
and talk about chinese tea ping
hahahah...wat da thng u make fal to u is..u care me..u understnd me..u knw who i am..u accept me who i am..
u teach me to do smthng ryt..u guide my life.,.u nvr fool me...u nvr let me down...u are too good to me..
i dnt lik da "joke" tau..tat "joke" rili can kil me...mie...i love u oni...and  da tym u gave me da 2nd chance..i realize  tat u d oni 1 to me ody...

keliru....

sy rsa keliru kekadang...
fel blur smtym...
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smtym i fel..
i dnt knw is okie or not i talk like tat..
i dnt knw whn im talk i can hurt u...
i dnt knw my word can even make u so pain inside...
i smtym fel so childish...
owez fel tat i owez ryt...
y i fel ryt tat?
not coz guy...is coz im bunguk smtym...
mie...dee owez kc low my voice whn talking wit mie...coz dee dnt wan fight wa..
smtym mie mcm dnt wan layan dee...uinah..pnya dee bergegar..
and da teori of v eachother not ngam...
jz vanish tiz teori k mie..4 dee..v fight tiz much not wat..
v fight jz becoz our emotional control us tat..
mie..evry my blog is about love...love 2 mie..mayb mie fel bored to read
bt.wat dee said inside here iz through from my HEART...
我爱你...